Already things aren't going well

Already things aren't going well. 

In this blog I'm going to chart the creation of my first feature film. The idea is that I'll spend a few minutes every week trying to reach out and share my experiences. But I've been staring at the screen for 20 minutes now and this is all I've written.

I hate blogging. I fucking hate Twitter. It all seems one sided and self important to me. Twitter makes no sense. The messages seem like gobbledygook and there's too much information. If I follow more than two people I'm drowning in needless info. I love Amanda Palmer with all my heart and I put my $10 into her Kickstarter but I wish she'd SHUT THE FUCK UP.

But I get the feeling its because I don't understand it and its my problem. I wasn't raised to be loquacious, I only talk if I've got something worth saying or if I'm drunk. I need to change that.

So here's the deal. I'm making a film and I'm going to tell you all about it. But this isn't PR. It's not a publicity drive. I read Robert Rodriguez' Rebel Without a Crew a while ago and want to steal his idea. I just want to make a film and to tell you how it was done. I'm going to try to be honest. I'm going to record my insecurities, my arrogances, my conflicts as I go. I'm going to tell you when I think things are going wrong and when they're going right. So this isn't a blog about a film. It's a blog about me, trying to make a film. And it's probably a bad idea. It's ok to spread your ego out and tell the truth when you have money and success. When you have no money and depend on the good will of others, being candid is stupid. 

So we've established I'm stupid. 

Goodnight!